就算是在梦里,依旧很清楚的记得。
“这是你的决定?”
非常迟疑,但我得说:“。。。是。”
“我不会勉强你。。也不会求你。”我看见你眼中渐渐凝聚的冷漠和愤怒。
“我知道。。”骄傲如你怎么会去求人。
你调头走去客厅的另一端。我看着你僵硬的背影,开始有点后悔了。
“给我一个理由。”
你在哭吗?我听见你的声音都破碎了。
从没在你面前哭过,在这一秒,眼泪不争气的流下来。
泪流满面,我是极心痛的。
我从没想过这会是我们的结局,从没想过你对我有一份依恋。
我。。 也曾经对你有依恋。
“对不起。”我已经尽力地忍着我的哽咽,不让你听见。
“你要离开了?” 你问,回头望望我。
你曾经说过会把全世界的美好都给我,无忧无虑地,不会让我哭让我生气。
我问你为什么?苦恼生气是平常的。
你扭我的鼻子,说我不适合哭泣,也会让你心痛。
“真的?那我会用眼泪当武器,逼你就范,哈哈!”
现在,眼泪道出我的不舍和脆弱,你会心痛吗?
你静静地站在那里,好像尊贵的望族,漠视我的狠狽。
你能用冷漠武装自己,可以说是因为你的自私吗?
“你是不是决定离开?”你再问我,更冷淡的语气。
“这样对我们都好,我希望你能明白,我其实。。”
“够了。我们不要再见,我不需要你了。”
你的声音果决,容不得一丝妥协。
我觉得。。真的结束了。
痛得我不能呼吸,眼泪很不争气,好想对你说我后悔了,但我不能。
我能做到的,漠视我的心痛,漠视你的痛苦,漠视那份甜蜜。
我望你最后一眼,想找出你也舍不得的气息。 能感觉到的,只有你拒人千里的冷漠。
那。。就这样结束吧。没温柔的拥抱,感性的祝福。
走出那道门,关上它,把你永远地留在背后,不再回望。
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我闭上眼让自己稍微冷静下来,也让五味杂陈的思绪暂时放下。
那份痛,已经不再像当初压得我喘不过气,开始慢慢淡化了。
回忆是甜蜜的,也是心痛的。
我曾问过自己,我的决定是对的吗?也是对大家都好吗?
时间不对,我没把握,所以我决定放弃你。
我很想怪你,想大声地对你说这是你的错!
当你把它推到我面前,女孩的自然反应应该是惊呼感动掉泪,而我是愣,傻了。
“打开来看看。”
我不敢。我已经有答案了,我不能打开,我会心碎的。
“宝贝,怎么了?”你温柔的语气让我很不安。
“对不起,我不能。。。”
注定我会辜负你的感情,真的对不起。
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过了那么多年,我们都对对方不闻不问,为何现在才说:“我想念你。”
收到你的消息,说不激动,不坦然,不兴奋,不感伤,不在乎。。。
是假的。
我们都太骄傲,计较对方的情分,谁也不愿回头。
骄傲蒙掩我们的眼,让心软弱无比,一点的伤害造就无法回头的结局。。
何苦呢?
我很感谢,也很感伤。 谢谢你的回头,但是已经太迟了。
请不要那么霸道,那么自私,那么漠视别人的感觉。
你是好的,别担心,我已经是过去式了,好好展望你的未来吧。
当你在天空飞翔时,记得我们曾经约定,我们会互相扶持一起飞翔。
谢谢你还把我放在心上,时间会淡化一切,你的留言我会留着,就当是我们给对方的最后一份礼物吧。
这份电子日记,就是我给你的一份礼物。
保重了。
Saturday, August 29, 2009
爱,不能是骄傲和漠视。
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Dogathon 2009
Location : UPM
It wasn't in the plan that we are going because Calvin is teaching drum on the Sunday morning.
How lovely is he when he told me that he had rearranged the lesson so that we can bring our dogs for a day out.
All we wanted is they are happy and have the opportunity to meet new friends.
Joker with her ID tag
Slept at 2 AM because we needed to prepare all the necessary things, such as bottles, dog foods, plastic bags to keep the poo poo, carpet and pillow in the car and so on.
Woke up at 5AM. The registration starts at 6.30AM.
Dog Race
We managed to do it! Seriously the day is freaking dead HOT!
I'm worried that my dogs will get heat-stroke.
Luckily I am smart enough to bring a towel for them. Wind and caress them using the wet towel.
Joker and I compete for Musical Chair ;)
We didn't manage to win any prize from the competition, I missed my chair!
However, Mumble gets First Place for Musical Chair ;) No dogs care to get near to her, so she easily get her place while Calvin runs fast to get himself a chair too.
Mumble and Calvin compete for " Fixing Mr. Clown "
Mumble got Third Place for the fastest time to complete the puzzle.
I teamed up with Roche and we get Forth Place! Just 2 second after Mumble and Calvin.
" Fastest Eating Duo "
Joker can't eat it as the biscuit freaking big and hard to bite.
The Perfect Duo ;)
Watch out big guy, Mumble is coming to redeem her prize ;)
Joker representing Roche to accept the prize ;)
Roche was sleeping under the canopy during the prize giving out ceremony.
Mumble and Joker are like the Superstar in Dogathon. People coming to us and requested to take a photo with them.
If I charge them RM1 per photo taking, I can make good money and cover the dog food over the months. ;)
Never think these will come where we brought them out for the dog event.
People are saying Mumble is cute and clever.
Joker can says is the unique ones as I only able to see 3 Pugs including herself. The other two from the same family.
Roche is the most unique ones as only the vet student manage to recognize her breed, which is Belgian Shepherd Mallinous.
I love the Vet students over there, as all the malays touched the dogs and they are fine with dogs coming near to them.
I am aware that they are VET STUDENT.
Just wondering why is the Malays said they can't touch the dogs, it is HARAM.
Owh wow, get me the explanation. ;)
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Saturday, August 1, 2009
Half Dead and Still Keep Complaining
My laptop sent for service. (really WTF)
Wanted to use the desktop at home, but I forgotten the freaking password.
The best part was I set the password and I know it is freaking long and complicated.
Nobody can tell me the password.
Attempt to use iTouch, but it needs WIFI.
What The FORK.
Now I'm at Calvin's house in Sri Pulai using the WIFI service,
updating my blogs using his dad's newly bought laptop.
WHAT THE FORK AGAIN.
I had issue about his dad's laptop.
( Seriously, no gratitude lar!)
Why he spent so much for a HP where he actually can get a MacBook Pro.
( Freaking complaining for nothing. I like complaining, whatever. )
And I was half way to death where I accidentally slipped when I ran down from the staircase.
Why am I so clumsy? FORK.
Prayed hard and thanks GOD that I am alive.
Stay alive to keep complaining and cherish how great is the world in the same time.
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Went to Hospital University Malaya few days ago.
The service really sucks.
I came across with an incident where a young lady requested about the Cervical Cancer over the counter at the lobby.
The scumbag, which I named after the stupid old fat lady working in the hospital, said out loud :
" Are you active in sex? How many guys you've been sleeping with? "
I was like WHAT THE FUCK!
If the old fat lady dares to talk such thing to me, I will make sure she goes back with a swallowed cheek and embarrass her in the public.
Don't mess with me, wasted piece of creation.
Is she insane or brainless?
Uneducated person working in the hospital.
Cervical Cancer can happens on anyone that have ovary, arsehole.
You don't need to sleep around to get that.
Curse her never can be thinner anymore.
Pity the young lady she was in shock and couldn't make any response.
Hell ya' when you are treated this way, where you actually (or your parents) pay for the taxes and their ridiculous highly-paid-for-nothing salary, for the god's sake!
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Thanks to *someone* that dedicated a bouquet of roses to me,
wishing me HAPPY GRADUATION!
Really thanks and what a big surprise when you showed at my doorstep.
Friendship Forever ya!
7th Year Anniversary falls on the previous week,
celebrated it with my hunny bunny!
*Love is in the air*
Many hugs and kisses.
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Friday, July 24, 2009
Don't convert : I Like Him into I Want Him
Why is this so hard to understand, friends?
It's just a plain compliments to a talented person,
as plain as white paper, mind you.
On top of that,
he is so far far far far far far far far far far far far far away from me.
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When I have a thing on somebody,
I wouldn't tell the world,
unless he likes me too and he is my boyfriend.
When I don't have a thing on somebody,
I will tell you how good is he, how gorgeous is he, how attractive is he...
Why?
I am a girl with a VERY STRONG JEALOUSY.
Do you think I will tell you guys how perfect he is,
without worrying he will snatch by other girls.
Hohohoho.
I am girl with confidence and intelligence,
he will be mine.
But why am I so worried if he will be snatch by other girls IF I AM SO CONFIDENT?
What if he doesn't know I like him??
It's a question take more than a second for me to think.
WHAT IF.
WHAT IF.
WHAT IF.
NO WHAT IF AT THE MOMENT. btw.
My sense is very strong.
At the first sight,
if my heart beats faster and feel pain,
if I avoid looking into the beautiful eyes,
if he can't take his eyes off from me,
if my face started to feel hot,
if we smile to each other,
if I am speechless and my knees are weak.
CUPID STRIKES ME!
SO.
SO.
SO.
SO.
So guys no worries, I will know if I fall into someone, alright?
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Monday, July 20, 2009
Asia Pacific Dance Explosion 2009
My mom and I.
Do we look alike? ;)
19th July 2009, I went to Shangri La located in Kuala Lumpur to give my full support to my lovely and pretty mom.
Both my sisters were there with her since 6 am in the morning, to give a hand in preparing for the competition. Clothings and make up, which I'm not good in it.
I was nearly missed my mom's session as I woke up late. The session will be starts at 9.30AM, I woke up at 8AM. I haven't have my breakfast, bath, iron my clothes and so on.
Luckily I have a very lovely car which allowed me to speed up to 160 KMH, on top of that, I'm a VERY good driver. ;)
I reached there and parked my car nicely about 9.20AM. I didn't missed my mom's session!
My mom and her friends.
Basically, this is the first time my mom joined this competition. Technically, people in her group more likely professional and their dancing experiences are much more longer than my mom's.
Bravo mummy!
My mom got the 9th ranking, as for her to enter the final stage, she has to be at least 8th rank, but I know she did her best!
I will never have the guts to dance in front of people ;)
Mummy and her friends.
Took this photo in the female changing room. The lady at the left side is Ms Lai, she got first runner up for her group! Bravo!
My mom is ready to move her body ;)
Nobody believes that I'm her daughter, lols. I'm happy with that, regardless this might a hint telling me that I'm old or I don't look like a young lady, haha!
Who cares?
I'm lucky enough to have a sexy mom, and she can dance!
Daughter and mom.
Her friends kept telling her : " Your second daughter is so tall, both the sisters are shorter, she is like you husband, isn't it? "
I was just plain smiling over there.
I don't think I'm THAT tall, by the way.
RM15 per box, but I got for free.
Dinner time.
Dancing is good, now only I realize.
Dancing is hard, cause I will never can handle dance move.
*I like to move it, move it*
Us with friends!
Both of them came to the hotel just to drop by seeing us, so sweet.
I found a beautiful creature there!
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Pim Van Grootel
So obvious that I'm actually took this photo secretly.
He is same age as me! He was the chief judge during the competition.
Amazing, wasn't it?
Those aunts told me : " Hey, he is looking at you, why don't you take a photo with him and get to know each other? "
*LOLS*
He was actually sitting at the table next to my table, and he was facing me when he was on his seat, apparently he looks like LOOKING AT ME when he is looking straight!
*oh funny*
"Don't you think he's good looking?" Aunt A asked.
" Yes, certainly. " I said.
" Then you should go and know him! "
" Hahahaha. I'm busy. " Best excuse, I assumed?
I like beautiful things, I won't deny this.
This boy is a talented fine creature in the world.
Let me put it this way...
He lighten up the FRAGILE WORLD with his beautiful dance move and bring hopes to people with his fine-crafted body line.
He makes me believe that :
Dancing makes people look sexy.
He makes me wanna :
Find my long lost for almost 20 years bloody-hurt-my-feet ballet shoes!
*Seriously*
I can't dance anymore, not even stretch my legs.
A fact that-might-be-a-real-fact :
I think I look taller than him.
Whatever, he is still a sexy hunk.
I like to Move It Move It - Roslyn
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
Red Devil : Glory glory Man United
Manchester United Asia Tour 2009
I reached there at 2.30PM. ;) Can't wait to see them in action.
Tickets.
Really appreciate these. Credit goes to Joevin for getting a ticket for me. I was waiting confirmation from Jan whether or not he's interested to go with me, when finally I got his answer, the RM308 sold out!
*so sad*
I've been asking people to accompany me, most of them had dates; and if I got a group, I don't know them much, how am I supposed to talk with them?
The crowd!
Joevin and I.
We have been planning this 2 weeks before the match. Where to have lunch, dinner and what time to reach at the stadium. I admitted that I was too excited and kept bugging him about what to plan and what I've planned.
My shoe, his shoe.
Seriously, I don't know much about football. All I know is banana kick, thanks to my football instructor for training me so hard, I was so near to death, then finally I passed the banana kick session in college. Yeah, I was in the football club to obtain my curriculum credits.
So, impossible isn't it?
I PASSED IT.
During my first semester, a hardcore fact.
We were so vulnerable. When MU scored, we cheered! When Malaysia scored, we screamed!
Happy that we managed to score 2 goals, bravo Malaysia!
The results :
Manchester United 3 : 2 Malaysia
But, why the Malaysia players attempted to play it solo? Why can't they just pass the ball around?
sharing is caring mar~
" You think everyday is Sunday mer?!"
Joevin shouted this out when the Malaysia player tried to score the goal with a long shot.
Alright, I told you, I don't know anything about football.
So, it's quite hard to score with a long shot, on top of that, you are actually playing with a world well-known superb football club.
Haih, how I wish Owen can marry me.
He is so cute.
The MU goalkeeper is sexy too.
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Sunday, July 12, 2009
Shogun, Japanese Buffet Restaurant
Portions for 5 person.
First round. Second round. Third round.
*Stomach full and satisfied burp*
Sweet and spicy prawn.
I didn't taste it, I am not a spice-person. ;)
Tempurasss.
I forgot to take a pic of fired soft crabs. Wondering why I didn't eat tempura in spite of it was just nicely put in front of me.
I'm planning to have lunch with my boyfriend in Shogun for the next two weeks. He, personally not a sushi-person, but I believe the food with baked cheese and drinks can entertain his stomach. ;) We had few lunches and dinners in Jogoya, to be frank, the raw oysters in Shogun are way fresher than Jogoya's.
The service is good. the waitresses and waiters are friendly. You guys should try out the special-made-duckroll or whatsoever. Heard that it's a new dish just started last two weeks.
I had sharkfin dumplings and sharkfin soup too. I assumed it's an artificial sharkfin soup, I just like the taste of it. my friends were in deep love with the noodles.
Seriously I can't recall most of the names. ;P
I drank a lot of Ice Lemon Tea. Nice. ;)
My stomach was SO FULL. Worried that my jeans button will come out. ;P
I love the atmosphere.
Playing Japanese songs, the food aroma and the services. Two thumbs up. ;)
A big round table in the middle of the floor, serving sushiss and raw oysters. Make your saliva drops even more when you see the baked seafoods and dumplings.
the sauces are served accordingly. You won't be confusing about how to eat, what to eat. All the foods are labelled and served in a small portion. you can take all you need, the foods are served from time to time, so you can take your own sweet time finishing the foods in your plate without worrying the food will be finished.
Certainly, it's a self-service buffet resturant. However, the waitresses or waiters will clean all your used plates and refill the drinks and soup for you.
I really don't know how much is the price per person, I assumed it should be cheaper than Jogoya's. ;) Shogun is affordable and a good place to go with your family.
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归类在于: Lunch and Dinner Time
Friday, July 10, 2009
Valentine Be Mine
February 14th
The Day the Birds Began to Mate
Love birds are everywhere. I believe you and I are in love, no?
People are wondering. Why am I writing about Valentine's at such time? We still have a long time to go before we celebrate it.
Viva King and Queen!
This coming 28 July is our 7 Years anniversary!
People around are curious. Well, both of us had prepared special gifts for each other. Seriously, I'm a genius. I offered him 240 times of chances to guess what I got for him, he has no clue about it at all!
Genius? *miow*
People saying : Everyday is Valentine's if you are in love.
Owh, should I agree with this?
At the moment, I don't think so.
How bored it can be if everyday is Valentine's?
PLAIN BORING.
Agree, fellas?
Valentine's is a special day for me. Regardless the roses and gift, Valentine's is a memorable date where most of the people all over the world are celebrating it with their love ones. Roses is a-must-item, candle-lighted dinner in a romantic restaurant, surrounded by lavender aroma. Sweet.
I'm in a dinner gown, high-heels and perfect make up. He breathes to my neck, caress my hair and say : " You're so beautiful and charming. "
" You're handsome and gorgeous as well, huney. "
I still remember when few years back, we were having our seafood dinner at the corner of the city, his phone rang. Annoyed, aren't you?
Answered the phone. One of his friends, named Wai Ho, a short and ignorance guy called him. He was questioning him where were we now, and he wanted to tell us something. So my hunny said go ahead.
This guy questioning him how could we go for Valentine's dinner while a girl named Lam Yee Teng was love-hurt and alone in Seremban.
Who cares? Love whoever that inverted loud speaker. I took the phone and said : " Fuck off, midget, ass holes. " And I just hung up the phone. Cool?
My hunny will never being harsh to anyone, so better I take the job.
Whatever, we had a very romantic dinner and had a movie after that.
♥
I google about Valentine's and these are what I've got :
The Europeans believed that on February 14th the birds began to choose their mates. In fact Chaucer, in his "Parlement of Foules," wrote: "For this was Seynt Valentine's Day when every foul cometh ther to choose his mate."
John Donne wrote:
Hail Bishop Valentine! whose day this is;
All the air is thy diocese,
And all the chirping choristers
And other birds are thy parishioners:
Thou marryest ever year
The lyric lark and the grave whispering dove;
The sparrow that neglects his life for love,
The household bird with the red stomarcher;
Celebrations
Thous mak'st the blackbird speed as soon,
As doth the goldfinch or the halcyon . . .
This day more cheerfully than ever shine,
This day which might inflame thyself, old Valentine!
The Christian tradition of drawing names on St. Valentine's Eve continued in England and other places. The tradition of birds choosing their mates on St. Valentine's Day led to the idea that boys and girls would do the same. Now when a youth drew a girl's name, he wore it on his sleeve, and attended and protected her during the following year. This made the girl his valentine and they exchanged love tokens throughout the year. Later this was changed to only men giving love tokens to females, usually without names but signed "with St. Valentine's Love."
Later, in France, both sexes drew from the valentine box. A booked called Travels in England, written in 1698, gives an account of the way it was done:
On St. Valentine's Eve an equal number of Maids and Bachelors get together, each writes their true or some feigned name upon separate billets, which they roll up and draw by way of lots, the Maids taking the Men's billets, and the Men the Maids'; so that each of the young Men lights upon a Girl that he calls his Valentine, and each of the Girls upon a young Man which she calls hers. By this means each has two Valentines--but the Man sticks faster to the Valentine that is fallen to him than to the Valentine to whom he is fallen. Fortune having thus divided the company into so many couples, the valentines give balls and treats to their mistresses, wear their billets several days upon their bosoms or sleeves, and this little sport ofen ends in Love. This ceremony is practised differently in different Countries, and according to the freedom or severity of Madame Valentine. This is another kind of Valentine, which is the first young Man or Woman chance throws in your way in the street, or elsewhere . . .
Not to forget, St. Valentine's Day was mentioned by Shakespeare. ♥
Each little bird this tide
Doth choose her beloved peer,
Which constantly abide
In wedlock all the year.
♥ To His Valentine - Drayton
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Saturday, February 14, 2009
庆祝情人节
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归类在于: 恋爱万岁篇
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
SUSHI ZANMAI
I'm too old for a walking exercise.
Thanks for the treat, hunny
- With love, Roslyn
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归类在于: Tasteful Candies